Consider that you can see less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum and hear less than 1% of the acoustic spectrum. As you read this, you are traveling at 220 km/sec across the galaxy. 90% of the cells in your body carry their own microbial DNA and are not ‘you’. The atoms in your body are 99.9999999999999999% empty space and none of them are the ones you were born with, but they all originated in the belly of a star. Human beings have 46 chromosomes, 2 less than the common potato.
The existence of the rainbow depends on the conical photoreceptors in your eyes; to animals without cones, the rainbow does not exist. So you don’t just look at a rainbow, you create it. This is pretty amazing, especially considering that all the beautiful colors you see represent less than 1% of the electromagnetic spectrum.
NASA Lunar Science Institute (via atramentum)
(Source: thinksquad, via atramentum)
I keep thinking you already know. I keep thinking I’ve sent you letters that were only ever written in my mind.
Iain Thomas, I Wrote This For You (via wailun-deardaydream)
Most of the time when I feel inclined to post updates on this blog, I think of all the reasons not to, and ultimately I refrain. Also, I’m still recovering from a lot of stress that I don’t want to remember in detail or share with the internet. But I suppose a small update would be good to look back on later. The past two months, I’ve been resting, clearing my mind, purposefully revisiting the more pleasant emotions and sleeping away the occasional waves of sadness, letting them fade away overnight. I haven’t been heading in a particular direction, nor have I regressed and gone into complete hiding again. I’ve hit a giant pause button. I’m at this stage in which I’ve opened my front door and am sitting on the porch, getting properly accustomed to my environment this time around, inviting a select few to sit by me and chat for a while before sending them on their merry way. I haven’t been isolating myself indoors, but I haven’t been out running and being productive either. As I’ve sat here, observing both my outer and inner worlds, I’ve enjoyed the company of one person in particular. I even met his mom and grandma recently. My brief time in knowing him so far has been a bit of a blur; nearly everything seemed to be on fast forward. I felt ready for it all at the time, though intellectually I doubted myself. I followed my emotions more than I did reason. Maybe I won’t fully recover from my first and six-year relationship, and maybe I’ll always miss him, at least a little. Maybe I wouldn’t ever be fully prepared (mentally, emotionally, financially, etc.) for another relationship, but so what? We are never finished until the day we die. We always have the potential to grow. As long as I can manage those memories quietly and healthily, why shouldn’t I see where this new relationship takes me? I read “mom blogs” regularly, and I read somewhere that no matter how much preparation you do, you’re never 100% prepared for raising a child. So you have to just give it the best you’ve got and jump right into it, figuring out the details and continuing to learn along the way. Maybe that’s how it is with a lot of endeavors. “Fake it ‘til you make it” was something I heard a lot during the whole interview process last year. I didn’t feel ready to apply to grad school. I didn’t ever feel completely prepared for interviews. But I knew what I wanted and did my best to get through the journey. I know I want to be deeply connected with one person and share and build my life with him. (Not to ruin the romance of it all, but it’s pretty much in my genes.) My level of readiness to explore this new connection is not at its highest, but it’s just enough for now. Maybe enough truly is all I need.